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It's the big 3-0 and you know what, it's not such a big deal after all.  It's funny the way things seem to build up to a moment where you think your life will change in some dramatic way, then you get there and everything still feels the same.
Craig and his mom surprised me for my birthday and flew my momma and baby sister to me in Sacramento.  I was totally surprised and needed them here more than I even knew.  It was such a good time and God revealed a few good things to me. 

1.  My mom loves Him and can hear Him, so stop being so prideful Mud.
2.  She understands way more English than we think.
3.  Jennifer is His.
4. My mom is His.
5. He is revealing His heart to them, so just rest.
6. Peacemaker
7. Love and kindness go so so far.

My mom totally baffled me after church on Sunday.  We sat around the table, eating dinner and she stopped Jenn as she was preparing to start fighting or something and said, as clear as I could have, "Jennifer, Peacemaker."  WHAT?!  The pastor has been going through the Beatitudes in church and I wasn't sure what to expect from either my mom or Jenn as a reaction, but this was furthest from what I could have imagined. 
We laughed about this and later, as we drove, Jenn also mentioned another thing the pastor said that day, with absolutely no prompting from me.  We ended the trip talking about some good ole' heavy stuff as we drove them to the airport and my mom gave Craig and I the best advice "Just be loving and caring."- It was that simple.  No, my mother wasn't claiming to have done that all the time, but her words fell like fresh rain on my tired, dry, and thirsty heart.

Thank you Father, for speaking to us even when we aren't listening.  Thank you for never giving up on us and for falling like rain over our dry and thirsty hearts.

Amen


A link to a beautiful song Winter Snow by Audrey Assad

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=380527494647